Wow. A year has past!
I took a year off from blogging. It's amazing all of the evolving one can go through in a year. Relationships ending, new friendships formed, children growing and leaving the nest and becoming engrossed in new work projects. Most of all, taking a break from some aspects of life to concentrate on rediscovering oneself can be an awesome, inspiring and amazing journey.
We are constantly evolving and if we choose to embrace this process and have acceptance of the life we are creating it can be one hell of a growth process. Discovering the preciousness of who we are and where we are and what we are becoming is a magical experience. In the last year I have made a conscience effort to embrace all that I am and all that I will be and made so many positive changes. Even the not so positive times have lent a gentle lesson in life and I have come through victoriously. You see, ending relationships that hold you back, learning to live with children moving on to create their own adult life and taking time to be alone with my thoughts has brought my to where I stand today.
I have learned that we sometimes spend so much time trying to control the outcomes that we loose sight of accepting that life is supposed to unfold in its wonderful and perfect timing. Acceptance of this is allowing yourself to grow through things instead of fight the natural unfolding process. What a concept!
One of the best things I love about writing/journaling is the ability to go back and read what I have written. One of the things I usually ask myself when I am having "a moment" is, will this matter in a week from now, a month from now or a year from now? I have the ability to see such growth and change in others and to celebrate their overcome obstacles and victories, but forget to reflect back on my own passing of time. I recently came across something I had written exactly one year and four days prior. Wow! What perspective! I have truly realized how much difference a year can make! A rush of gratitude came over me as I read these words I had written just over a year ago and made me realize that no matter how many obstacles we must hurdle, life is a beautiful, precious unfolding. Again I had confirmation that everything unfolds in its good and perfect timing according the plan and purpose that is intended for our lives. It also made me extremely grateful for divine intervention, a few dodged bullets and personal growth. So here is what the page said...
"The ultimate goal is happiness. At the end of the day we all just want to love and be loved.
I just got off of the phone talking with my best friend. What an amazing blessing it is to have someone in your life to remind me that I deserve to be happy and that I am worth it.
These are things I know, but on those days when my thoughts are overwhelming and the frustration overtakes me, it is nice to be reminded. The road to happiness is not easy. God promises that the things that have been taken from us will be replaced tenfold. Is it wrong that I am reminding God of this? That my frustration in the waiting period is withering? I do realize that the road may still be being paved or that that paths are not in line yet, but I long for the arrival.
I was reminded to keep day dreaming. To imagine being in the midst of the place that makes you feel alive surrounded by people that love and support you. Those people that know your truths, your struggles and your aspirations.
Will happiness elude me. Will I look back a year from now and have the hindsight that I dream of? I know it is all a process. But how many more years will I be stuck. How do I trust in the timing of this process when it has been years in the learning. Feeling like I am at a place that survival and struggle becomes the norm. Only since I have realized my worth do I realize that clinging to what once was is much more painful then risking it all and moving on perhaps to only end up alone. Is believing that it will all work out in the end enough? Yes, my hope is steadfast.
Okay so I will continue to send out the good vibes to the universe and pray that it all comes together, the planets align and that my soul will find the happiness it craves. Here's to the good life. "
Perspective...
So to answer my question to myself, YES, I can absolutely say, YES, I will look back in a year and have the hindsight I was dreaming of!! A year can make a tremendous difference!
It all started with a choice, a plan, learning to put myself on the priority list, following my intuition, meditating, stepping out of my comfort zone, finding my passion again, living my purpose and trying each day to be better than the person I was yesterday.
I could never have planned or imagined....
But, then again it was never really my plan to begin with. I merely learned to take each moment as it comes and embrace the unfolding of the divine plan..... Blood, sweat, tears, break downs, do overs and uprisings....
Again I say, here's to the good life! No, strike that.... Here's to the GREAT life!
Just Sayin',
Christina
