So as I sit here starring at my computer screen I need to remember my love for the written word, and the fact that in this crazy life, I feel that most of the time, my writing is the only voice that I have. For me I started my blog as a preface for my book. After all, my brother always reminds me that a book is written one page at a time. I started writing to express what was inside of me, to be able to be candid and honest and to express the random thoughts that seem to bounce in my head and in hopes of bringing some joy, truth and hope to anyone that would read my words.
I have found
that most times when I have a “block”, it is because I actually have too much
that I want to say. Too many topics jumbled up into one tiny space, my brain,
and not one in particular can stand apart from the other in order for me to
articulate the depths of thought on that particular point. Yup…overload! So, I did what I needed to do and just started
to type these random things down in the hopes that I will be able to focus long
enough and come up with something partially intelligent. I also need to sometimes remind myself that
the name of this blog is “Take Off Your Mask” and I need to not be so blind to
that fact that in the hectic-ness of life, and as we are spinning too many plates
and wearing many hats, we can accidentally get caught putting on masks to
protect ourselves from the chaos.
In order to cope and keep the peace, we can
start losing our voice and become too “politically correct”. It is okay to have
an opinion and I live my life knowing that I can agree to disagree with others.
I love diversity and value others way of looking at issues and I know that my
intention is never ill-willed. I have
firm beliefs, but honor the right of others to have the free will to stand firm
in their beliefs and live the way they choose to live. I do not judge and keep
an open mind in all situations. I love that we continue to grow and learn every
day that we are breathing and I love the moments that I am reminded of how far
I have come. I choose to try and put myself in other people shoes and realize
that we sometimes just don’t know the story that hides behind some of the masks
that people choose to wear. We do not know the burdens that others carry and
kindness can overcome so many problems. I know that in life there are seasons
for everything and giving up is never an option. I do realize that one person can
make a difference.
You see,
writing is a very personal release for me and yet I choose to share it with the
world. This leaves me wide open and vulnerable, not a place that is comfortable
for me, but vulnerable in a good way. By being too guarded, we can shut off the
blessings that come with allowing ourselves to be vulnerable. I’m sure that I
have created my own writers block by being too guarded and cocooning myself
from the chaos. In some ways, my writing reiterates my growth and allows me to
discover new sides of myself and become more accepting of myself and all of my
quirks. I accept that I am kind; I will
usually take the high road in situations and will try and do the “right thing” despite
any pain involved. However, I don’t mistake those for being a door mat, being
weak or lacking courage. Right, wrong or indifferent, it is just who I am. I would rather choose to be honest with
myself and others than to shut my mind & heart off to the beauty of living
authentically.
So, as I
re-commit to giving myself some personal time to enjoy the things that bring me
joy, a sense of purpose and a rejuvenated
spirit, I want to thank you for allowing me to be vulnerable in my writing. My
blog is a place of comfort to me when I feel it is the only forum that I can
truly and authentically share my voice! And, hopefully it makes a difference…
Just Sayin’,
Christina
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